I was looking for the attention that was missing as she withdrew from everything. She said she gave up months ago. Even asked me if I wanted to get a girlfriend at one point. All after the babies were born and she went back to work. Then withdrew was on Facebook constantly and wouldn't engage me in conversation when we were together.

I am in marriage counseling with my pastor dealing with my infidelity. Stopped porn all together for 11 weeks now. Even before all of this. We were intimate sexually every day up till the BD.

Being the best dad possible right now is seeing my babies as much as I can and still seeing and loving my SD15 who I have raised for last 10 years as my own. Doing as many things as I can with them and making it about family. Not the situation. Being on time for exchanges, not causing problems.

I want to save this marriage more than I have wanted to do anything in my life.

Me:35 W:37; S17 D15 D15 D1 D1
M:9 years T:11
BD 5/2/15
W moved out with her D15 our D1 D1 6/15/16
W filed for divorce 6/19/15
W moved back in 7/11/15