Yeah Cali, I know. We brought the not so sporty car to the carwash just now, and while we waited went to our favorite European coffee shop across the street. Tried very hard not to mess with the planted seeds and stick to neutral topics, but she kept bringing things up. Plenty of them had to do with how we weren't a good couple and she's not coming back to me. But other things she said:

"So, what is this thing you know about OW that I don't know?" (I waved it off.)

"I have no idea if things will last with OW, I'm just having a good time." I nodded.

"We had a great relationship. I know you love me." I nodded.

Plus, she acknowledged that she can't accurately assess our relationship while in the middle of this torrid affair, and she hinted at certain creeping issues in her relationship with the OW, nothing specific. Interesting that she shared that.

Only argument we had was in the car on the way back over a FedEx notice for a package that one of us needs to go pick up - it was stupid and we even started laughing about it. She said, "I will be home tonight, but I'll be late. I miss my bed."

And on her way out the door she said, "I love you."

Makes my head spin... which is why as painful as separating is, I know we need to do it. She can't see anything clearly, and I'm starting to doubt my own sanity at times. These small glimpses of hope are certainly tempered by her insistence that we are DONE. Only the folks on this board don't think I'm crazy for continuing to love her.

Me: 46 Her: 41
M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18
3/26 W and I meet OW
BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring
W goes to stay with OW 6/26
NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16
I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19