Little Cloud of Dust - PigPen & The WAW (3)

[PigPen]

I'm forecasting out a week. A week from now I'm going to have a lot of clarity. I'm going to feel like I was heard, I listened with an open heart, and have a clearer understanding of what's happening in my life, and what I want to do moving with it forward...

This afternoon I'm meeting with my business partner to continue negotiations on my new role in our business. He was not happy with my last proposal and this has led to a lot of tension in our office. Tension I could do without this week.

Tomorrow I meet with my WAW for the first time in three months and a counselor. I've been taking deep breaths for the last two weeks knowing that this meeting is coming. The combo of having these two back to back is one of the most intense feelings I've ever had to deal with.

Fortunately, I have not wanted to disappear into drinking, smoking pot, or numbing myself in any other way and have felt there are immense lessons to be gleaned from the pain and uncertainty of it all. I also believe with all my heart that both are necessary parts of my own individuation and growth. If I want big changes, I've got to be willing to go through growing pains.

Deep breaths, lots of them today. Trust in my higher power today. Lots of it. Gratitude for all of the positives today. Immense amounts of it. Gratitude for all of the advice and support I've gotten on the DB board. Worlds of it.

PP