Last night I did my usual routine, W had been TM quite often, she called me right as lunch hit and we met up for an 'out of the blue' lunch which was nice.
I have been working on my PMA a bit more, trying to focus more on the good things rather than the things that are lacking ... realizing I would rather be where I am ... than where I was last year, 3 years ago, even 5. Looking at it my PMA has been solid, just not around W as much ... most likely guarded in a way ... but thats not who I am nor who I want to be.
The original plan was for us to cook dinner together, however W TM she was at the gym so I decided to cook S dinner as I ate left overs. W TM she was on her way around 5:45, I told her to take her time as we were all set. She seemed a little upset we were not over at her place but I did let her know she had changed what we had planned, no big deal we would be over soon.
Arrive to W's got S in the shower and W and I did homework, chatted a bit. I read the new book some then S jumped into bed and all 3 of us were reading Snoopy taking turns reading a page and really having fun, enjoying ... dare I say Real Family time. I got up put S to bed, he was all boyish and happy, took the dog out for his walk, cleaned up and jumped into bed, continued reading the new book some as W was watching a show on the iPad. I set the book down and turned off the light, leaned over and kissed her goodnight ... was at peace and relaxed. Well .. one thing lead to another and there was some heavy petting going on again .. .she had mentioned the STD flare up ... so we just messed around some. She was frustrated ... I was caught off guard, we talked some about it but she was upset as she felt cheated and things were one sided like the old M. I did talk to her about my concern with the 'issue' but she was not going to be talked off the ledge. We chit chatted about some other thigns .. nothing important and ended up going to sleep.
Middle of the night S wakes and has somethign in his eye ... I am a deep sleeper .. was of little help. They end up getting him all set and he jumps in bed with us, W jokingly gives me a hard time about how I was no help.
Wake up and take the dog for his walk, W asked me to get S breakfast as she had a busy day scheduled ... again .. frustration in her tone, I took care of what she asked, told her goodbye and she snapped about some other things that needed done, I calmly ask her what ... do them .. but did tell her I realized she was frustrated but its no reason to get nasty. I return to say goodbye .. .her tone was better, but not all loving.
So thats the daily report. I will put on the mindreading cap. Some of the Old M stuff showed through last night and this morning, along with the fallout of the A and what it left behind. I am not sure which of the 2 she is upset with, more likely the former as I do not think she wants to really face the later and realize it is an issue, one we will have to address. I was calm, understanding to a point but did stand up and let her know I was not going to be the punching bag, this did change her tone some .. and would never have happened in the old M. (Progress)
I expect a bit of dim on the TM front today, I could contact her later I am thinking about this, she needs time to process things I think.
