It has been a tough week for sure. There are so much that come to my mind. The time it all started, how things unfolded from there, the moment you had the kids, those times when we argue, those when we laughed together.
It's all a big mix. It's all so hopeless. I wish I could have some hope and keep the family together, but there is a lot of crying what translate only in self pity.
There is no sign H wants to come back, wants to keep this family together. I must detach and let it go. It's time to walk my own path. I just hope to feel better want it is all done, because right now, as much as I want to see things brighter, I can't.
I am thankful though I found this site and learned more in this last few months then I ever learned in my life time. I changed and I am changing, I can feel it and my friends are telling me that too.
H probably do not see it, he is too busy being a victim, feeling sorry for himself. This is not the man I married.
Haven't been doing much. Just work, all the stuff for the Mediation, the kids and just keeping life moving, is keeping me very busy right now. Never tough something would shut me down so severely, but it has, this one event is very heavy.
