Falling Pianos: Wayward Wife & LRT (8)

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Thanks for the response and support guys! Sorry, I meant to post this yesterday but I wasn't able to. I will catch up on the other comments and reply later when I get the chance.

Zues,
I completely understand your position. I do want to at least have a shot at saving my MR. My W, or who I knew to be my W, is gone for good. I'm not even really confident I could ever love this new woman again because of how much she's changed. It makes me wonder if she pretended to be somebody else during our MR and just finally decided she had enough pretending.

What gives me an ounce of hope is that STBX still seems conflicted about her present course. I feel she still genuinely cares about me or why would it matter if I was angry with her or hated her like she alleged the other night. Maybe that is the guilt talking, who knows?

Journaling:
Today started out much better than Monday. I went in to work a few minutes early to get caught up from yesterday. STBX sent me a few cute pics of D4 with the new people. I responded with a short TM playfully acknowledging the pics. A few hours later, STBX sent a pic of S1 with the puppy and a video of D4. I did not respond to this.

Around lunch time, STBX sends a TM saying that she is contemplating a different school for D4 and asks if I remember one of the schools we looked at before. She also invites me to visit the school again with her again tomorrow morning.

Me: Yeah, I do remember liking it. I will try to make it tmw morning. Thanks!

I'm totally in favor of a different school for D4 mainly because the financial burden of her current school is tremendous. So hopefully STBX and I can agree to make the switch.

I FaceTimed with the kids as usual. At the end of the call, I told STBX that I'd be able to meet her in the morning to tour the prospective school for D4. She seemed grateful that I could make it

Last night, I had the philosophy discussion group that I facilitate at the local brewery. I always look forward to a little John Locke paired with an American lager. I have thoroughly enjoyed reconnecting with my love for philosophy and critical discussion. It just stinks that it took BD for me to do it.