I'm so sorry Matt. I don't know what to say other than hang in there and don't give up. You have been through so much, it's pretty understandable to feel down.
I wish you and your girls the best.
Me 48 H 46 S 11 M 2004 BD 8/13 H moved out 2/15 -live in the present, enjoy the beauty around and within you, explore your new future-