Thread for Prowl #2

[Prowl]

Morning Prowl,

Reading your last few posts it seems like some of the overwhelm and sadness has dissipated a little. That is good! So glad you have kept posting. You will find your feelings and life in general will be up and down and side ways at times. Go with it, as fighting against it is exhausting and takes away from what you need to feel on top of things, to feel at least a little more like yourself.

Seems like a fairly decent exchange with wife this morning for you. Do you think there is something you did differently this morning that contributed?

This may be a little intrusive, and feel free not to respond, but how are your kids managing?

You are in my thoughts Prowl.

JB XXX

No, nothing different but not speaking to each other for over 24 hours and letting her contact me...

But the goodwill didn't last long. I found our home online as a "pre-forclosure". I can't believe that my life has got to this point. I worked so hard for that home and now it's going to go into forclosure... I could have used some of the money from the sale of the house to put down for at least a condo.. It's so frustrating that she could have me legaly removed from my home. Live in it rent free for 8 months and then walk away and not even care... She litteraly is like "Oh well".

It comes down to being able to afford to pay back our debts in the CH13. That means paying our regular mortgage and then paying back the missed payments over a 3-5 year span. This would be impossible living in two different households. I've asked her if there is any way should would be willing to live under the same roof as me while we try and save the equity. She says "No, we don't get along". No matter how many times I say I wont talk to you, I wont ask you where your going, I wont even pretend like your there, the answer is always "I'm not living with you".

I know it's because she can't continue her A if I am around. I can't believe an A is more important than our home and family. I hope God thumps her good for this one!

I even asked if she would go live with her family while I lived in the house and made the payments and catch up payments. She wont have that. How can anyone be this immature and selfish? It's honestly like talking to a brick freaking wall...