I am not doing well at. I go to bed crying, I wake up in the middle of the night crying and I wake up in the morning crying. I can't seem to stop. I feel like I am right back at the beginning. I need a compass to get out of this mess.
I don't think he is going through a MLC because he has let himself go, for example he has gained a lot weight instead of getting in shape. He hasn't changed his appearance. He simply looks lost and confused as do I.
Can someone explain this to me? My H told me the other day that he did not want a divorce, however he needs to talk to the therapist because he was on the fence rather or not leave or stay in the marriage. I am confused. Because if you don't want a divorce then lets start working on this.
And this no contact is so hard but I have resisted because I don't want to push him away.
This GAL thing, I am trying but it so hard. i started to make a quilt for my oldest D thinking that would help me but it hasn't. I haven't worked on that in a few days. I have no motivation or drive.
I have an appointment today with our therapist and boy do I have some words for her.
