Abusers often are very sweet and kind when u first get to know them. It shows they can control their behaviours when they want too. It is once you are emotionally attached that the ugly side rears its head. It is easy to look at your situation logically when you are not emotionally attached. Much harder when the head and heart don't agree.
You are showing courage as you take these steps into the unknown. Know that this will get better and your life will balance its self out again. As they say the only way to get to the other side is to go through what ever is ahead.
Thinking of you my brave friend
Hugs
Karma
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.