I don't know if it was going back to work, my snarky boss and the family, but I was in a bad mood tonight when I got home. W would not let up and kept asking me what was wrong.
I guess I was thinking about the secrecy and related crap going on with the W and let the bad emotions get the better of me. I decided that it would be good to go for a walk alone to try and clear my head out - no phone or other distractions.
Then I came to this thought - I can let my W's behavior and actions make me miserable or I can choose to stay focused on me and what I can control. I can waste my time thinking about the EA and OM or focus on positive things in my life like my children, health and the fact that I am blessed to have a job that supports my family.
I feel dirty playing house with the W and probably will until we have transparency - no matter how I want to convince myself otherwise I guess that is the thing that is bugging me the most. I will never understand how she doesn't get that I don't want to ML to her. I wish I could write with big letters on the wall or my forehead that her lies or half-truths have turned me off to her. Sorry I started to vent a little bit. Hope your nice is great and that you all have a blessed day.
