Sorry Prowl, it doesn't matter why. This isn't a puzzle any of us can solve. We all spent the first few months after BD doing just that.

If I could only have used the right set of words in that email, or TM'ed with the right emoticon, she would have woken up from her insanity and come running back to me... It doesn't work that way.

It's hard to hear, but once it sinks in it helps - this isn't about her now. Every dollar of mental energy you spend trying to figure her out, is one less dollar you have to invest in yourself.

And guess what? Only when your portfolio is full will she think about coming back to you. Right now it's empty and you're giving your money away. Trust me, I did the exact same thing.

Start figuring you out and put the pain and passion you have around your situation to your own healing.

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T5 M3
BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day
Served 9/15
D finalized 6/17