Hi Hopeful - interesting you mention 'empty inside, like a black hole' - have you read much about MLC at all? My H said something similar - that he had a void right in the centre of his heart....to me these kinds of comments can indicate potential MLC and your H would be a prime age for it...
In terms of why would I want him back? For me, my H was a great partner for most of our R/M. I don't believe he is inherently bad at all, but he has taken a path that I can't live with just now. Will that change in time? I don't know.
Could I forgive infidelity? I hope that I can be as forgiving as many or most. And many people do forgive infidelity and heal together. Do I want to bail on our M because the going got tough? No. Do I think we could make it work again? I just don't know.
But there is no need to make decisions like this right now. If you are able to shift the focus onto yourself and move forward enough, become detached enough - none of what you are posting really matters until or unless he is interested in reconciling....
So, are you making some nice plans for yourself?
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
