Theirs nothing wrong with crying Prowl. I have cried more in the last 6 months than I have in my entire life. Honestly, many of us have been exactly where you are right now. I'm even a very introverted person and being alone scares the hell out of me. Its one of my deepest fears but I cant let that fear control my life.
Trust this process and give things time, be patient. My W was so vicious and angry at me in the beginning. Threatening to take my kids away if I said anything about the guy she was pursuing. Telling me she didn't love me anymore. Don't listen to any of it. It is no reflection of who you are at all, just her.
Those memories can happen again, have faith.
This isn't easy, but if you do the work and keep moving forward things will get better. You can use this to become a new man, just as I have. I believe you can do it. That pain will lessen over time. Give yourself time.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
