Prowl! Look up the story of Chesley Sully Sullenberger. He was the pilot who save hundreds in the miracle on the Hudson. His father committed suicide. He has spoken about it. It is a terrible legacy to leave to your kids. Instead you have to be opportunity to model resilience and true grit. Your moment to shine may still be years away. Don't miss it by exiting early! Hang in there, you will get through this. I know the pain seems unbearable. We all feel that pain at times. You have a lot of folks here who understand and care. Just take each day as it comes. You are in Damage control more right now. Focus only on taking care of yourself. If you have to get away for a few days, then make up an excuse and get away. Doing this saved my life after BD. If you can't shed suicidal thoughts then please please call the hotline.
