This is not the way to make her regret her words or actions.
It's not about making her regret anything anymore... It's just about getting this pain and loneliness to stop.
We have medications and therapy to make it stop. There are medicines that can give you a temporary all stop, and there are those that can help make the pain manageable. These are much better options than the one you are contemplating.
Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15