Your value is not based upon what she says. Please notify someone at work that you are in crises.
You want this pain to stop, and you see ending your life as a solution. It is not the answer. Your life is worth so much more than the cruelity your W inflicts. This is not the way to make her regret her words or actions.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
