Even with lots of GAL all week, the past two days I have really struggled. I have been missing my H like crazy, so lots of tears and meltdown last night. Ok, part of that was because I had a pie catastrophe---major baking fail, which never happens. I threw something because I was so hurt, angry, and frustrated so now I need to do some patch work on wall before H returns from trip. Really upset at myself for not controlling my emotions better. I guess it is because of the holiday and so many around celebrating with family. I know he is actually working today, but trying to understand how my H can continue to ignore me as if we were never married and together for 14 years. So unbelievably hurtful. No texts, no calls, no nothing. I am sure he has time to text and call OW. This is really not the life I deserve or want for myself, but I have to preserver. Need the tears to stop...I am a mess right now. Ok, on to the good....
I did run a 5K by myself this morning. My friend twisted her ankle hiking, do she had to bail. Proud I still went on my own. I think my time was around 33 mins, so not to bad considering how warm it was at 8am. Relaxed a bit on the patio. Heading to friends BBQ and fireworks later. The day will get better.
Happy 4th of July!!
Oh, BW. I understand so much. When things go wrong, I want to throw things too. Sometimes a good tantrum just feels like the only way. I get it, and it's OK. I feel the same hurt every day. Just pick yourself up and come back stronger. You got this.
