I understand what you are saying. All of it. and I can do that. I think mostly I just tired. Mentally and emotionally. And I sometimes feel like ' whatever'. Then I step back and look at how far we have come and think ' I can still do this'.
I think I need to speak with H again? I am sure that he is not only back at the house because he has no place else to go. He before he went to Dubai he wasn't living with us and had an apartment. He could have done the same this time. Also he did tell me that he was back for the children and me ( not just our children).
But he has not faced his demons. At least he has not expressed it to me. He may be facing them internally but we have not spoken. He says this will happen with time. He needs time. We will see.
I will continue growing and living. I won't stop.
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
