Can it be another round?

[BrightFuture]

Vge, Job, Heather, Mighty, skhdive , 2BHappy, FY, busting, thank you all for the words of support.

You are all right, I should not assume anything. After all, I don’t know for sure. It is my imagination that got me spinning. Amazingly, I feel good right now.

Job, exactly, H knows that I will handle the audit. And I’m not that worried about it. There is nothing to find. It is just the waste of my time and government money.

Go to your vacation home and have a good time. He's going to do whatever he needs to do to get through this rough patch in his life. It's all about him.

Job, your posts always make me feel so much better. I have no words to express my gratitude to you.

Mighty, I don’t really know what will change for me if I find out about ow. I cannot tell right now what I will feel and how I will react. It will be something new for me to experience. Time will tell.

Hi bright, I just wanted you to know how special you are. Thanks for being you!

FY, this means a lot to me, especially coming from you. I almost cried reading this. Thank you.

I’m at the vacation home. Came here on Wednesday, worked remotely yesterday. It was great. Internet is fast and I was able to do my job just fine. Then I went to the beach with my dog after work. This is dream come through… Funny, that this was H’s dream a few years ago. He was imagining me working from home and still making the same money I was making, but we could live here full time. Well, I’m not saying that I’m ready to live here full time anyway, but staying for longer periods of time and still working is a good possibility.

Met with my mutual friends yesterday. We will be spending more time together. Tomorrow is a big party, everyone will be there. Including that crazy woman, sigh…

Things I learnt. H was here about three weeks ago for a big off roads race. I learnt that he was stinky drunk most of the time. My mutual friends only saw him briefly one night. He spent a couple of nights at somebody else’s place (guessing at that crazy woman house) and slept on the roof (roofs are flat here.) And then he passed out on the couch at the condo on the last night he was here. I also found out that he dinged his car somewhere (last year?). I guess driving drunk. When I was listening to all this, I kind of felt some compassion for H. Isn’t it weird? Sometimes I feel like I’m bipolar. My feelings change from angry to compassion and understanding for H.

Overall, I’m feeling pretty good right now. Enjoying my time here. Doing what I like to do. Going to meet my neighbors (who came here for the weekend too) and my mutual friend for dinner tonight.