Rebuilding my castle...foundation is halfway...

[LoisB]

One last thing. This fits into the relationships after MLC category.

So... The Forester comes out of the wood work again. I, purposely, didn't contact him. He seemed out for only some distraction, not a relationship. So, I left him to his own whatever.

He reaches out to me after a few weeks of nothing.

I respond. We talk about nothing and just shoot the whatever.

Then, he starts or I start... someone starts with the sexual innuendos.

Now. I've had this weird whatever this is with this man for over a year. We've been intimate. We have things in common. We definitely have chemistry.

I realize he is in Ohio and I'm in NY. But, one of us always reaches out to the other... so, I say, what if we make this something more?

What if we try a long distance relationship? He seems open to it. I lay some ground rules and describe what I'm looking for... maybe not exclusive at first, but we could meet here and there when I go to Ohio to visit family. He could come here from time-to-time.

I'm honest that I'm not looking for a relationship with someone right here, right now anyway. Can't do it with D12. Maybe we could figure this out.

Sounds like he is up for it... then, I say... "I need to feel special to someone, like someone has my back."

He responds with... "Well, until that happens, we can have fun."

WTF.

Then, he sends a couple stupid texts with things like... I'm a bad influence, but I'm fun.

That was enough for me. I've been around the bush with this guy plenty. So, I unfriended him on FB. Thought that would make my point.

He contacts me via text and asks why?

I tell him and it leads to this long, ridiculously drawn out conversation where he says over and over how he is just after fun. As the day wears on, he gets meaner... after I confront him that I've been honest all along and wanted more.

Somehow, this asshat turns it all around and makes me feel like I'm the weirdo for asking for more.

He gets all dramatic and says he's going to delete my contact information so it will be harder for him to contact me.

As I type this, I see there is something weird here.

Why do I attract psychos? Or, why do I find psychos so attractive.

I mean, after this conversation with this man... I, honestly, was questioning my sanity, I was feeling overwhelmed with rejection... again... and I had this sorta sick feeling in my stomach... it was very ewwww.

One of the few boyfriends I ever had turned out to be a compulsive liar. What the hell is wrong with me?