However, getting nervous about the interaction tomorrow. It's such a catch 22 - I miss her and want interaction, but I miss the person she WAS, not IS. So, when I do interact it just hurts. I was finally coming to terms with using the time to work on me and time being a gift, but with how fast she's pushing to move things, I feel like I don't even have control on that gift.
You do have control over it still, it may just not appear so right now. Just show her the best Ripken possible. If she cant see your value as a person someone will. Right now keep giving her space and time and work on yourself, like you already know. Nothing you can control about her situation anyway, no point in stressing out about how fast she moves.
One point to make, A's thrive on the secrecy and are built on mistrust, they just don't survive the interactions of a real relationship. If shes wanting things to move faster with him who's to say it wont put pressure on the A. We all know the stats on A's and how often they work anyway.
No telling how things will end up, maybe her pushing things faster now ends up being the quickest route back to reconciliation, you never know. The future is full of possibility, just let it happen and control the parts of today that you can. Things are going to work out one way or another.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
