I have had to send a couple of texts to W about kids since we changed up the schedule.
They were short and sweet and polite. Only answers I get from W are "yes". Ok, we are now onto that game. Maybe that's how it will be from now on. Just sort and sweet and business like.
I can do that. I am keeping my focus on ME and what is best for my kids.
All of this still seems like an endless bad dream but with time, I know it will end. My IC said I will start to heal when all of the uncertainty ends. He means with the D. I am beginning to think he is right.
My real fears are:
her taking the kids - won't happen her taking the house - won't happen being alone - has happened and may not last forever being erased - has not happened and won't
So why am I still so fearful of this process? Is it just that I fear change? Is it that I fear the unknown, Is it that I fear my W? I just can't pinpoint it exactly. Maybe its a combination of all of the above.
