Been thinking about this mess .. its funny .. prior to BD I was actually kind of cocky, amazing what a BD can do to a person. It will just take a little time, I feel like Austin Powers going after Dr Evil for his bottle of Mojo back.
Went over to W's again last night, she made me dinner, ate, we did our homework .. between my frustration of her consistently missing the point, and her dance with Mrs Cramps ... well .. not a great night .. did end ok as we did some pillow talk. This morning .. again ... disaster.
There is a battle .. boundary pushing on a few things it seems. She tried to push buttons but I was not giving that up, seen that dark cold eyed MLC person this morning, so rather than engage, I walked the dog and left. W blew up my phone pushing the issue ... I juts replied with the fact I refuse to go back to a loveless/sexless marriage as I stated to her this morning. I had to bite my tongue a few times and not bring up the A ... as it was right there and would have been so easy, I am happy that I have arrived at a place where I can refrain from doing such things. She continued to blow up my phone a bit, I validated and then just got to a point I told her "Let me know what you would like to do, we can either try to work this out, or divorce. She quickly changed her tone after that.
I understand there will be up and down days .. today is a down ... So we will see what tomorrow brings.
