All I Wanna Do Is..Get A Little Closer #12

[Georgiabelle]

Thanks so much for stopping by Beatrice (you always make me laugh), Wonka (I'm so over hearing about the Pats' balls:), Cali (I'm going back to Cali, to Cali), Mighty (I almost injured myself wearing sky high heels yesterday because I sprayed room spray on the bathroom floor...can we say wipeout?), GG (hope you are well) and Toots (hola!). Next time lets have margaritas or my special rum punch, okay?

Wonka, the client is 17 layers of yum. Literally the most beautiful man I have ever seen (hilarious, smart and a very devoted Dad. Drool bucket worthy and my best friend concurred. He could totally be blizzard of the month at DQ. He has a gf though:( Gads!!! Oh well. I still think the universe is talking to me. Now if the universe wants to step up it's game they can drop off an Adam Levine, Ryan Gosling or Idris Elba clone at the front door. You can do it uni!!

I wanted to share that I had previously underestimated how beneficial GALing can be. My social calendar was packed (well for me anyway) in June and a couple of trips are planned in July (San Francisco, Pigeon Forge, and the gulf coast of FL).

I feel pretty good. I, of course, get sad some days, although it is fleeting. Went out with a couple of friends on Thursday night and one asked why I wasn't dating. I told him the truth. I'm. just. not. interested. right. now. His response? That I look really hot and it's time to capitalize on this. Ha! I told him I'm sure I will want to one day, but I have zero interest right now. Occasionally, I do say, "how did I get here?" and then I realize I'm where I'm supposed to be-even if it doesn't all "make sense" (darn logic) all of the time.

I still struggle with wanting to be right. Still wonder if I will find love or allow myself to open up to someone. Would someone want a smart, 42 yr old woman with 3 kids, a round booty and a raunchy sense of humor? Oh and my impressive shoe collection and vast sports knowledge. Would I be attracted to him? However, I try not to dwell on those thoughts. What's that gonna do for me? That's right. Not one friggin thing. It will all fall into place.

If there is one thing I am totally appreciative during this process, it's that I relish some of the little stuff again. I love to watch s5 sleep. Kiss the dog on the nose. Hold S12's hand. Sing with D10.Chasing S5 around a store. Listen to the rain. Laugh so hard I cry. Getting a compliment. Giving a compliment. Just having someone say "You look really pretty today" (that happened as I was pumping gas the other day) or telling someone that they have an infectious laugh. I enjoyed all of those things before and now they seem a little different. I can't describe it. I look in the mirror sometimes and I see a changing face. Everything changes with time, you know? And that's okay. That's exactly what is supposed to happen.

This is a difficult road and believe it or not...it may have been the best thing that ever happened to me.....well, besides my 3 people. Sending positive energy and laughs to all:)