Sit and Spin III

[asitis]

Glad you resisted urge to text your W. Would not have helped. You did excellent to just focus on your D's needs right there in front of it.

To the excellent post you had in response to mine, one of the biggest changes that occurred for me was realizing that I had been auditioning for great H worthy of W's love. That's pursuit and comes across as disingenuous. When I changed to just being me, recognizing that I already was a great H, I was able to relax a whole lot and my dynamics changed. I've seen that in your threads, and I'm glad you recognize it in yourself.

And your IC is right, those feelings are normal. Further, strong, courageous people get scared and have doubts. Our media presents heroes in a very unrealistic way (want to see some realistic heroes, read Homer's Iliad - they cry, run away, and cower at times, but that isn't what defines them). The difference between the strong, courageous people and those who aren't, is that the former don't let those fears and doubts take control of them and succumb to them. You've already shown you are the former, so don't let some of those feelings bother you or shake your confidence in yourself. You're doing very well.