My XH and I haven't been talking since our last blow up a few weeks ago. I was doing ok but had to see him today for work and the anxiety is back. It's hard to believe that he doesn't feel the same as I do. He didn't want to hold our family together. I often wonder if he is happy and if this is everything he thought it would be.
Here is what I am struggling with now. He works for me now since I bought him out. After a blowup he resigned and asked me to find a replacement. Then when I did he blew up and asked me to reconsider. We haven't spoken since and I don't know how to set him free without another blowup. I feel bad and feel like I am a traitor by letting him go. He can use the income but I also feel it's been too easy for him. He has started working from home and has a really stress free flexible schedule. I don't think he works more than 10 hours a week for me. I am ready to set him free so that he can see what life without me is really like but I don't know why I am struggling. I feel he is my family and I am doing him wrong.
Why do I feel this sense of loyalty when he had no issue leaving his family?
M12 Kids 2 ILYBINILWY 08/05 Reconciled 05/06 S07/12 Moved back 03/13 Separated Again 06/24/13 Back Again (his choice) 02/14 Leaving again 03/23/14 DIVORCED 02/15
