Amazing post ... I could have written so much of what you shared .. and yes ... you get it, it is all about YOU and has nothing to do with her, she is on her own journey .. in her own crisis and you were so close to that its hard not to get sucked into it.
I truly think you are on your way to Heavy 2.0. Now comes the hard part .. with that post .. you may even want to print it and reflect on it from time to time. What are the changes you want to make, who do you want to be, the old Heavy did have some good traits .... keep those, then slowly replace the bad ones with ones you want, traits you admire from others, keep at it and do not let anything/anyone derail you from this much needed transformation. If there is a magic bullet in all this, I feel you have just loaded it into the chamber.
