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[DifRent]

Yep Fogg, we know not to make decisions based on feelings. But I reacted this morning. She came into the bedroom and said we needed to talk. I said, "not now." She asked when. I said I don't know, next week maybe, but right now, I really would prefer some space. She said okay, and left the room.

But she just had to pop back in about fifteen minutes later, because of this dinner with the boys on Friday. "I understand you don't want to talk to me, but if we're going to do this dinner..." I told her the not wanting to talk isn't a permanent condition, but that I'm surprised she even wanted to do the dinner. Figured she had plans.

Then the conversation just went off the rails, I'm not even sure how, but's like all the negative bases got covered again ad nauseum. I shut my computer and started packing it, telling her to shut her mouth for once and just stop talking. At the end of the hurl of accusations back and forth, I reminded her again that my love for her is self-sacrificial, and that no, I'm not giving up on my commitment the way she gave up on hers. She said, "Well, no... and maybe you shouldn't."

Have no idea what that meant, and she followed with, "Regardless, at this moment in time, we cannot live together."

And of course, I agreed. Then I left... knowing a friend is out of town on vacation and her house is available to me, I just packed things and headed over here, probably will stay for the night even. The nice thing is that my boys are here, too... since they won't have internet hooked up at their place till the weekend, they've been hanging out here. So I get to be with them, at least today.

Whew. After dinner on Friday, I'm meeting with an acquaintance in the neighborhood who is looking to rent space in her townhome. I think it would be a good interim option for me, so fingers crossed that works out. Would like to start devising my exit strategy.