I plan on re-reading Chapter 5 at lunch since I'm confusing myself quite a bit. I took the kids out for a nice long walk last night, that way we weren't home by the time she got home from work. When we got home it was time to get kids to bed, we were both in the living room playing with the children, but "distant". I was pleasant, not depressed, positive, and polite to everyone.
She asked me what time our therapy session is on Tuesday (1pm) and since she was leaving town to visit my sister and some family for weekend she didn't know if she would be back in time. It disappointed me at first, but I didn't say anything more than, "should I try and reschedule?" The little devil on my shoulder is saying "She doesn't want to work on this", the little angel is saying "She just doesn't want to rush home".
I know she is leaning on me as an H, but I'm not sure where my boundaries begin or end. Should I have come home with the kids last night and said "Here ya go!" and left? I feel like being a jerk is just going to push her harder away? For example, this morning DD woke up early since the T-storms were loud, she crawled into bed with W (since I'm living on couch). W had to get ready for work and DD didn't want to sleep alone while T-storms were going on, she brought DD to me on couch. W helped get daughter breakfast while I got ready for work, after I was ready for work I started cleaning the kitchen, putting dishes away and kept a smile on my face (again, things I wouldn't have done in the past). W kissed goodbye to DD and actually said "Have a good day" to me as she walked out. Now the past few weeks she hasn't said a single word to me on the way out. I'm not looking into any of her actions or behaviors, but now i'm questioning my positive/upbeat behavior versus going "dark".
Sorry, if I sound like a hamster going backwards on the wheel. I'm still trying to figure a lot of this out and keep my sanity.
