I am having the strangest feelings this morning. Saw the W briefly last night as she came home earlier than usual, and I had just returned from my divorce support group. This morning, she repulses me. She hasn't even said or done anything to trigger that emotion. I just know I don't want to see her, talk to her, or be anywhere around her... I don't know who she is. For the first time, I just want to get away and be free of her. I wish I had my new housing situation lined up already so I could go.

Maybe this stems from having spent five peaceful days away from her, and I want that peace back. It might have something to do with how utterly cold she was when the boys moved out and I was faced with what might have been the saddest moment of my life on Friday. At this moment, I'm feeling like the OW can have her, they deserve each other.

But I know this is just a fleeting feeling, and I better just get to church and pray for her.

Me: 46 Her: 41
M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18
3/26 W and I meet OW
BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring
W goes to stay with OW 6/26
NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16
I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19