H's MLC 10- I'm doing better

[2BHappy]

So the other day, Friday I started to yearn for real male companionship. I wanted to go on a date, dancing, dining,stare across the table into his eyes, smile and talk way into the night. As you all know that IS NOT going to happen anytime soon, so to quickly get out of that "woe is me" mood, I turn up some reggae and danced with myself. My mood changed quickly and I was good. But I'm really missing that type of relationship. I would even be happy with some just talking way into the night, about any and every thing.

I also have already started to think about my wedding anniversary in August, and trying to prepare my mind to expect NOTHING. At this time I plan to not even get my H a card, no gift, nothing, and I kinda feel like I dont want him to get me anything either, to just let the day go with neither one of us making mention of it.

Maybe it was the wedding I went to this weekend, and the upcoming one with H's family next week, that got me all mushy and thinking and yearing for LOVE.

Then it turned into wishing my grandmother was still alive, I swear she would be able to "walk" me right thru this mess. And I really miss her, she understood me the best and could just talk to me and always make me feel like all would be ok.

HMMMM,,,I better plan some girlfriend FUN time ASAP, been soo busy with work and family things, I better get some me time in very very soon.