Aj, everyone here that is posting is still in the fight. All of us. Many people are staring down the barrel of filed papers, spouse's in active affairs, kids being used as leverage, and worse.
And they are still in the fight!
You're still in the fight, but guess what, you just got knocked out before even walking into the ring. Yep, out cold in the locker room and they dragged out and put you in the ring.
Up to you what you do here. You can stay down and wait for the 10 count. Or get up, dust yourself off, start doing everything in your power to save your M, even knowing you may only have a .001% chance of success.
Your call. The only way you're 100% out is if you give up. You NEVER know what tomorrow will bring. Read the success stories. Read about people that have gone months with no contact, or worse, they wished there was no contact because the contact was hell.
Time for a little tough love my friend. If you're out, get out and be good with it. If you're not out, which it sounds like you're since you're still here, then put your damn hands up, get back in the fight, and start doing anything and everything you can to work on yourself.
Follow the advice you've been given - step 1 - make the decision whether you're going to see this through no matter how miserable you may be and/or how long it may take.
We've all been where you are. ALL of us. It's the worst hell.
Start making decisions.
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