You are in panick mode right now. We all did/are doing that. It's easy to say it'll get better but it's much harder to achieve it. The good folks here are telling you stuff so that you can (and you will) calm down and begin to focus. Once you focus you can embark on a plan. Small steps at a time.
Look, I'm not going to sugar coat you here. It took me months to get on an even keel but you in a small way are lucky as you found this place early. I didn't.
There is a person on here pyrite that advocated meditation. Is that something you can try?
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.
