I am doing well in some area of DB but in other not well at all & both are related to each other
I have NOT initiated, pursue, beg, NOTHING with my H, it has been 16 days since last saw him, I make sure I'm not home if he wants something & we barely text now, the last one was about $ and he texted first & I replied very short. It breaks my heart to have to do this & I keep repeating to myself to trust in the process.
On the other hand, I have been crying a lot, I miss him & I put myself in a bad predicament with the male friend I met online.
It is now very hard to let it go even without any physical attraction. I am trying, but it's so hard, I feel wanted, I feel it keeps my heart & mind busy but I shouldn’t of never have done this & now this is another thing I have to learn to let go
I hate my H for this, for making me go through these emotions that have made me to be that vulnerable.
I would have never thought that getting emotionally attached to a stranger would have been that easy.
I am disappointed in myself but proud of me for sticking with my 1st mini Goal.
