Yup, it stands for Rising Above It - II

[u-turn]

RAI - It hurts to just read this - I am sorry. So hard with young kids that just don't understand what and why and how (not that we understand any more than they do). This hurdle is crossed, it wobbled but didn't tip over, you landed on your feet and now time to run to the next one. (what's this, a marathon with hurdles? - yikes)

I also completely get the work struggles - both of my jobs suffered. I coasted by in one without putting my heart into it which saddens me because kids depend on me and I was selfishly coasting and thinking of myself when I should have been giving more to them (luckily I slightly rebounded and refocused toward the end of the school year). and in my business, I dropped about every ball that can be dropped (and though W doesn't know of the extent of that, she has judged me over it). I had a client last year/early this year tell me (he knew a little about my situation) I like you, you do great work, but you are paralyzed by this and I cannot count on you - it was heart breaking that a person couldn't count on me. It was a turning point - like another BD. I have done this so many times (burnt bridges) since BD. I knew I needed to detach from my sitch, detach from my M, detach from my W and focus on what is necessary right now, providing for my kids in a sustainable way. Not perfect yet, but re-building, getting better.

You WILL get better and it WILL get better.

Chin up. "this too shall pass"