Can it be another round?

[BrightFuture]

Thanks, Heather. It stings, and it hurts, and it stinks… I just realized that today is the 3 year anniversary of BD. Wow, what a coincidence… And to learn about OW on the same day… I’m doomed… I’m hopeless idiot… After 3 years, and it still hurts to find out about OW… I don’t remember if anyone was in this situation.

What also hurts is that H picking out the women who I know, or who are in my circle of friends as well as his. Such a heartless j!rk! Or, a desperate man (if I cool my head off and start thinking clearly.)

Now, a disclaimer. All this is more or less my guess and intuition. I just put 2 and 2 together based on the information I got. I’m pretty sure thought that it is the case. She might as well be coming as a friend. Knowing what I know about H’s recent “adventures” with that married woman from the vacation home, I’m not surprised that he booked one hotel room. This woman doesn’t seem to be of the same character as that married one. She appeared pretty decent, but…you never know… she might be fresh from her break up and looking for some adventures… All I know that they have just hooked up with each other recently, so it seems strange that they are going to stay in the same hotel room.

I had pretty bad day today. It felt like BD all over again. All kind of thoughts and images entered my head. But… I still went to get my mani and pedi as I planned, and also stopped by the store and got me a pair of sandals. So, I guess, it is not quite the same, ha. I’m much stronger and wiser… I will let that OW to deal with H’s weirdness. Maybe he can explain to her why he still has business and joint accounts with me, asks me to get and deposit his checks, and why his Playboy still comes to my house.

Thanks for listening. I almost called my GF today to get some support. But stopped myself thinking that I would just a big slap in the face again. So, here I’m posing here instead.

I just hope that tomorrow will bring more clarity and I will not falling apart again. I’m so tired of being hurt. Is going to end any time soon?..