Today was a kick in the pants. I've been anxious all day about my sitch and a meeting with my business partner regarding moving forward. I want to do some other stuff and we've changed our incomes to reflect that, but he wants more. It felt like I'd had six cups of coffee and my solar plexus were a knot of fireworks.
The meeting didn't go that well, there are now upset feelings. Although I did use a lot of Wonka's validation words. It was a balance of saying I knew where he was coming from but also valuing my role. I left it and while driving to the supermarket to get dinner almost hit some poor girl crossing the road on her phone. I was just a distracted mess and didn't even see her.
Truthfully I pulled into the parking lot and started crying. I'm a grown man, and fell apart. No kids, no evil W, none of the regular awfulness I read around here and still it's knocking me off my feet.
I get that this may be gift, but some days it's hard to find the silver lining. I'm going to slow down a bit, take more breaths this week, and focus on the positive. That and drive more carefully.
May there be positive changes in people's sitch's tonight.
M 39 W 36 T5 M3 BD - 1/15 Separated - Same Day Served 9/15 D finalized 6/17
