My heart goes out to you. OF COURSE your work is suffering. Our situations are as close to having an addiction as I can think of - and that's coming from someone who's in his situation partly due to addiction.
The obsessive thinking, low energy, lack of creativity, no memory, and general feeling like hell is all par for the course.
I recently read the book Resilience and in it the author, who is an ex Navy SEAL talks about how the year after his divorce he was essentially useless. This is a guy that kills people for a living and has probably seen stuff that would make all of throw our lunches up numerous times. He said his goal some days was just to wiggle his toes because he knew if could do that then he could move his leg, that let him know he could put his foot on the floor, that let him know he could get out of bed. I know I said it, but this is a guy that KILLS people for a living.
Keep taking deep breaths, keep putting one foot in front of the other and know that feeling the pain that you do means that you love deeply and are a good man.
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