Interesting post .... one I really liked seeing as this was more about a seriously deep look into you vs much to do with your h/hww and one that I just found myself forming a great big smile as I read as you really looked deep at yourself there... very good thing, even better you shared with us.
So something jumped out at me, correct me here .. seems you are having a hard time giving yourself credit. And even a harder time accepting guys other than the low level stalker types would be interested in you ... is it the fall out from the self esteem that took a serious blow?
I say this because I was there too ... thinking at a point .. I would only end up with the "drunk club chick" types and never have what I felt was a 'true' relationship again ... all due to being put through this ... hearing some of those Monster Spews and half way believing them.
So you need to get your swag back a bit .. not talking the "I'll go Mighty on your ass" swag .... but just accept you are the prize .. do not tune me out here .. keep that TV on this channel .. you are the prize, and I have no doubt guys would line up if you just dropped the wall a tiny bit .. but unlike them I understand the reasons for those walls .... But Mighty .. once you are able to let your hair down, toss on those heels and go dance and be carefree ... no doubt in my mind the fellas will be all about it ... not just for the reasons one might guess, but because of who you are and the fact your personality makes one feel its impossible not to want to know you for you.
