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[DifRent]

Hey Matt... good counsel, thank you. And again... though it's good to know you get how I'm feeling about other "happy" couples, I sure do wish you and I could be counted among them instead of commiserating about them.

One thing I'm having a hard time with is that I've put my own passions and desires on the backburner the past few years. My W and I were building a life together, and our real estate business was going to fund it. So I gave up my own career and passions to support our joint endeavors.

And I was once INCREDIBLY passionate about what I did. I built a school for godsakes, designed a middle grades arts integration curriculum, on and on... I really loved what I did, and I spent up to 15 hours a day doing it. But my W and I had other goals, and I gave up a lot for those goals... my own house, my car, my career, my school, everything.

So here I am all these years later, without much to show for anything, because I have pulled back and out of our business, and feel like I need to start all over. At the age of 46.

I agree it's a one day at a time sort of game. But at the same time, I have given up A LOT to find myself in this sad sort of situation. My fault? Absolutely. But that doesn't make it hurt any less.

In any case, I bought a new shirt in a color that's a bit bolder for me, and plan to wear different glasses for the lunch with my mom, the mortgage lender, and my W tomorrow. Following my DB coach's advice to shake things up in the appearance department.

This should be an interesting meet up. Will keep y'all posted.