I'm still battling with the subconscious belief that if I fill my life too full that my W won't come back. It's a crazy belief but I have it for some reason. I'm going to do some writing on that and get to the bottom of it as it has to have a stem in - if I become who I am at the highest level then there's no room for a partner. Or something to that effect.
PigPen,
You're welcome! Staying close to the bathroom is something I had do to numerous times, so I understand. But glad to hear your stomach seems to have calmed down.
I love this: "What I am doing is taking some action." That's a very good start.
As for the part of your post I quoted at the top, I understand you are confused, hurting, lonely, etc. But please get that thought out of your mind as soon as you can. The fuller your life is, the more desirable you will become to your W. Does it guarantee it will lead to R? No. But I feel it's your best chance to show her you have changed. Then, who knows where things will head.
Would others care to comment?
Take care.
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15
