I just feel like the future is so gray and dismal today. Any kind of happiness for me is completely out of reach, it seems. It's almost too much to bear. I have passion for nothing... nothing I want to do, or care about. Glad I'm far away from the W so she can't sense my despair today. I hope I am able to get things in check before she sees me at lunch tomorrow.
This is exactly where I have been the last few days, Diff. I'm sorry you are feeling this way also. That despair and just not caring about anything at all, I can relate so much. Last night it hit me and I just fell in such a lifeless mood. W was around and I think it looked more like I was tired, but I didn't care. I even got a beer and sat in living room before she went to bed and started to drink. I just didn't care about anything at that moment as it all seemed so hopeless/lifeless.
Keep up that hope, things can always change. Even if they don't come back to us in the end we will be good anyway because of the work we have done on ourselves. Trust the process, its hard. SOOOOO [censored] hard, but we can do it.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
