Zephyr - you say you get the 'sense' my STBX is controlling me, or I'm letting my emotions be controlled...you are welcome to try to explain more. I am still upset about everything, of course. Anxious about getting it done for the reasons I described in response to Gan. I don't know that this is a deeper psychoanalytical issue to 'fix.'
Hope you had a great birthday! Mine is Friday.
So what I was tryng to get at was that it still looks like you are working on detaching your emotions from H. It just seems that You are still so angry that it is affecting you, is this healthy phase of loss...I think you have to go through that phase. You are looking at so many things but the root of you severing his control over will eventually surface and i know you are trying to figure that out. Eventually you will have to let all of that anger go...once you've held it long enough to know that it is time.
Maybe you Are getting there and I was out of line, I am sorry if I was...I just hope that you are not getting stuck. I hope for your happiness and I know you can do it!!!
