Trying to stay focus on me.....this is a challenge

[asitis]

Thank you so much Asitis, I really do appreciate everyone's time on here, god knows it help me a lot.

I have hear on here on several occation "You are way ahead of where most of us were during this phase"

what do you mean by that?

Most of us have fumbled around doing all the wrong things for months and months before finding our way to DBing. When we went through the really tough early times you are struggling with, we lacked a lot of the tools that would help us get through it more effectively, be more skillful in dealing with our Ms, and make progress on ourselves.

You are here before making so many of those mistakes, so you are way ahead of many of us in turning the M around rather than digging the hole deeper. It is good news, although I'm sure right now you aren't feeling like there can be much good news.