Pyrite, WOW !! I had to read it several times because you have touched so many things that makes sense to me, so many things I was thinking.
I didn't intend on it, I was for sure looking for it & YES I was enjoying it....It completely made me feel special & wanted again.
To be completely honest, I did go & meet him in person at his house before I got to read all of your recommendations, I don't know what came over me, he only had been texting then one afternoon I was sad, he happened to text me & invited me over and I grabbed 2 coffees & I went.....there was NO attraction to him from my part, the conversation was nice & appropriate, but there I was meeting a stranger found on POF in his house by myself, no one knew where I was, off & on cell coverage....I left when my girls texted me to see where I was....I AM scaring myself writing this.
I realize that I am very vulnerable which I haven't been in soooo long...it scares me.
I feel that I am already over my head with him (nothing happened)but just because I am hiding it from my H & my kids...this is not who I am, but yet I did it.
and YES, my marriage, my H & my daughters are way more important then this, I am medicating with the wrong drug
I honestly don't think he wants platonic now that he seen me in person, but he does seem ok with just texting from now on (maybe he is just saying that to please me).I would not be proud to tell my daughters what I am doing, not all all !! He doesn't know my full name or where I live.
I appreciate EVERYONE on here, all your opinions totally does give me realistic safve options. ( I will remove myself from that online dating )site....what a crazy idea that was. Oley [censored] Im soooo mad at myself.
