All my fault that she had the affair. She "tried to talk to me" about her feelings about another person after she had kissed and made out with them and planned her escape". She said she left becuase I am abusive and controlling. She said she won't talk about it anymore. I said wow - still no empathy for any of this. She said "no". She said she would do it again.
She is glad she left - doesn't regret anything and this has nothing to do with our children being affected in any way. We will carry on being a family but just redefined. If I object to that she states I am being controlling becuase this is what she wants. She is angry when we talk and angry when we don't talk.
She now admits that her affair was partially responsible for her decision to leave. That was interesting. She gets so much from this person, love, emotinal connction, respect. I honestly had no clue she was unhappy with me and her life.
That is it - officially over it in my book. I had no idea she had the capacity to be this person. Again I control her and resents me showing any emotion about the situation.
Onto other news - gymnastics at 10am and swimming later on in the day. I have to continue to move forward and live my life. Goodbye to the past. The future will be one of my choosing, it will difficult but at least I can do it with integrity.
