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[V2pt0]

I shouldn't let this bother me, but she changed her profile picture on Facebook from one I'd taken last fall to one clearly taken somewhere with the OW, and painted those rainbow colors over it to indicate her support of the SCOTUS gay marriage ruling yesterday. That feels like a slap in the face, considering what she's done/doing to our marriage.

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I actually thought about the SCOTUS ruling in relation to my M as well. Mine was from the perspective that my H and I always had the right to be married. Here my H is taking our M for-granted and just tossing it aside, while others has to fight so fare for the same opportunity. But akso made at myself for not nurturing my right as well for helping get us to the point that my H felt it was worth throwing away.
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I also thought about this... my W saw clearly how sad I was yesterday to move the boys out. If she cared about me as the friend she claims to, I imagine she would have made sure I had plans for the night, and if not, she would have offered to be there for me, to support me through what promised to be a long and lonely night if I didn't have plans. Because before all this mess happened, we would have surely been together, I would have surely found myself in her arms on the couch, and she would have comforted me. But she didn't ask, didn't make sure of anything. She just went on her way and did her own thing. Completely in character with the WW profile, I know, but not at all the woman who would have been there for me - or for any of her friends in a similar situation - before this mess.
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I would try and not take this too personally, but I know it is hard though. She is in her fog and cannot see or think clearly. What woukd have been so clear before, does not even register right now. My H lost interest in things that I am quite shocked and saddened by. He has does not show any empathy or compassion, which is not my H. Just the other day I had a heart felt talk with H. He actually showed compassion for the first time in about two months. It was short lived though, because he only to turn around the next day and lie straight to my face again. There is one word that sums up my H right now----irrational.

Another example is our dog. We are the type that treat their dogs as if they are our children. He and that dog were inseparable prior to his A. Best buds. Now he does not give our dog the time of day, no affection, no walks, etc. If you would have ever have told me that would be the case, I would have bet money against it.

I know it does not make it any easier, but they truly are not in their right mind right now.