Thank you for your words ... and in some respects I vent here as there is no other place for me to do so ... yes I agree no decision to be made nor have I even thought about it .... Lord knows I have a dislike for Mr Patience ... always been one of my struggles.
I do not know what W2.0 will be like, and yes I am trying to remain centered and allow this to unfold, this time last year to now ... total 180 in my sitch and I realize that ... heck I even struggle with guilt that here I am kind of frustrated while reading everyone else who would love to be where I am .... all about that perspective isn't it?
I did talk with W last night about the Post stuff, I am not upset with her... but I am a bit disappointed that after 2 days it feels like we went right back into the day to day grind, in her defense she is focused on all the fall out of losing her job, having her financials cut, getting insurance, updating resumes ... toss in what is left of the MLC fog and she can not decide if she should start her own business ....I do not agree with this .. but her choice not mine ... and I would never tell her to not chase a dream .. I just do not think its the right time with us in 2 households and she has no income as of yet. That with the health issues that continue to linger and I fear will get worse with this increased stress .. I am concerned for her and her well being so its hard to expect she has anything else for the M. And even whats left in the tank .. I am torn is that enough>? No .. I deserve better ... but that's the selfish part of me talking ... along with the past me who never felt I was in the top 5 priority category and I still don't feel that ... maybe once I do I will relax and be all in ... till now I still feel very much a LBH and watching from afar making sure not to add pressure, allowing her to get through this and be the lighthouse and rock while continuing my own journey.
