Repentance on her behalf seems like that will never happen. The things that she has said in general and specifically in efforts to "comfort" me are just unreal. Don't know how much you have read but my IC has remarked that W seems to be Aspergers. Her actions etc surpass the usual WW script in a "strange" way.
I dismissed this initially, but on reflection, and talking with family, friends, this seems a very REAL possibility. It doesn't change anything really for me or us now, but I am concerned that this will make repentance absolutely off the cards. Not saying that it couldn't be off the cards anyway. Because this A is her true love and I am just an arse.
I am not grateful for this situation I am in. All I have ever said to W since BD is that we will ultimately learn from this experience and bring that new wisdom to our next R. Please give us the chance to have that in our R.
2 months later I came here to DB land and I now I celebrate the magnitude and depth of how life changing that wisdom can be, learnt from hitting rock bottom as a person. I wish we could have learnt this together and without this A, but I honestly dont think (for me) that would've happened without bottoming out.
So there is a silver lining in this cloud. Should W ever repent and agree to R, then we might enjoy this new wisdom together. If she doesn't, she doesn't. It's not up to me. I can be the "lighthouse", but if she is looking starboard only then it doesn't matter how bright my light is.
M: 6 T: 12 Kids: 2,4 BD: Jan 2015 S: Feb 2015 EA/PA confirmed: Feb2015/Mar2015
